An Ode to a Southern January
Boredom, so much boredom.
The lights and decorations have been put away. There’s nothing to look at.
We have no more holidays to celebrate. There’s nothing to look forward to.
Our friends and family have to go back to work. There’s nothing else to do.
Cold, so much cold
We have no snow on the ground to brighten the world. There’s no beauty to admire.
The air outside is getting too frigid to appreciate. There’s no reason to spend time outside.
The flora is dead like our spirits and our motivations. There’s no vigor or life in the world.
Aimless, so aimless.
What is there to look forward to when the skies are so gray?
What warmth is there to give or feel when the world is so cold?
What reason is there to hope when the love of the season has faded away so quickly?
Yet there is also hope, so much hope.
This month is the first one after the year’s end. With that comes the chance to reflect.
This month is the first one in the new year. With that comes the chance to make changes.
This month is the first one in connection to 11 others. With that comes the chance to grow.
Merry Christmas, everyone! Thanks for being here with me during a year when I struggled heavily with depression. I am in a much better place than I was in before. I know life doesn't end when you don't have everything together at 30 now. I know it's okay to ask for help. I know I don't need to be good enough. I know that I deserve to live in this world. Thank you so much to everyone who has supported me and this story. May you have a blessed holiday season and a wonderful new year!
Just look my Way almost made me cry
That music video with Stolas and Paranoid DJ’s song made me shed a tear. It was beautiful. All I want is for Stolas and Blitzø to get together and finally be happy. Please, God!
Happy Thanksgiving!
Oh, this year has been a rough one, guys. I've let depression kick my ass and keep me from church and pursuing jobs as much as I should. I'm still underemployed. I still have a boyfriend. I have amazing friends. My family drives me crazy, but I still love them. I'm grateful for all of them. I'm grateful for my writing. I'm grateful for God for never abandoning me. I'm grateful for you guys, too. Especially @Twilight-na and @MrM0rtis, you guys have been great.
Netflix DVD is Ending
I have rented so many Netflix DVDs. 243 to be exact. It's because of Netflix DVD that my friend and I discovered the Evil Dead franchise, that I finally got to see more of the Muppet Show, that I got to discover multiple classic movies like Alien, that I dove into Studio Ghibli films in college, and that I got to binge multiple anime including Cowboy Bebop. I know I have more options to stream than I did in the past few years, but as I look at the Tom and Jerry DVD on my Blueray player, I feel a bit of sadness and thankfulness. Thank you for your array of options that are now available on streaming. Thank you for being there to entertain me through the good and bad. Happy Trails!